The Writings of Gabriela Garcia Medina

December 5, 2008

Smile to Life (Entry: December 4rth, 2008)

Filed under: Journal — Tags: , , , , — gabriela @ 9:03 pm

I smile to Life

I read this article today and it made me reflect on myself and the world around me:

http://dsc.discovery.com/news/2008/12/05/happiness-contagious.html

Reflections on article:

Happiness is most def. contagious.

We have the power to choose it
and when we make that choice, it manifests all around us. I really
believe that. Even in these trying economic times, we have the power to
choose how we want to interact with the world, we can choose to be
angry, annoyed, scared, or we can choose to tackle these challenges
with laughter, with joy making the best of every situation.
It gives me an idea for a poem:

Imagine if Laughter was contagious
If you could catch smiles like cooties
And find joy, like light in our darkest hour

Imagine if Happiness was not something we struggled to achieve
But that it was always present in the way we lived our lives

Imagine if a smile could cure a cold like a shot of wheatgrass
Or if an open heart warmed rooms like the sun
If we replaced doubt with faith
And fear with God
If we knew that the world would always be smiling at the beauty of our life,
And that our mistakes would make sunflowers bloom in the most unexpected places.

I wonder how different the world would be?
And i wonder how different we would be in the world?

Consejos de la Abuela for a Broken Heart (Feb 2007)

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CONSEJOS DE LA ABUELA FOR A BROKEN HEART!

I went to Zabumba this past Sunday night, a place where i frequent on a weekly basis…so as to brush up on my salsa skills ….And this one very attractive Cuban guy who i know from the scene, thought he was being witty when came up to me and said “Tienes que enamorarte” meaning “you have to fall in love”
i totally laughed it off, said my goodbyes, and drove home.

Now, i believe that God speaks to us in many ways, and on my drive home i thought about what this guy had said. Ofcourse he had only intended it to be a pick-up line but to me it was so much more.
I thought about his statement “You need to fall in love” and in that moment i realized that as much as i have tried to move on from my last relationship i really HAVENT!

I went to sleep that night and of course….who came to visit my dreams…..my ex!

I woke up the next morning in the WORST FUNK i have been in since my father past away, and i even felt a little guilty that i was somewhat more upset about my ex breaking up with me.

IS THIS NORMAL? WE BROKE UP APRIL OF LAST YEAR…THAT’S 1 YEAR AND 2 MONTHS!!!…SHOULD I HAVE MOVED ON ALREADY….?

I read somewhere that it takes about half the time you were with someone to get over them? So according to my calculations….we were together for 2 years shouldnt i be done MOURNING ALREADY????
And why is it soooooooo much easier for men to move on than it is for womyn…..?

Men can find someone else right away…for us womyn it takes so much longer.
I think it is because we as womyn get entered so we hold so much inside of us, whereas for men, all they do is enter and move on….you know?!?
Anyways….so I woke up in SUCH A FUNK the other day…that i did not do ANYTHING at all….just put on some Lila Downs (for those of you who dont know…Lila Downs is like the 21st Century Mexican Billy Holliday), sang along and cried all DAY….Pathetic? I KNOW!

But it’s OK…i want to put myself out like that to the world….afterall….i have a feeling that i am not the only one who’s been through something like this…..
Which is why i decided to post the advice that i received from two people in my life who i love and respect. That way…if you’re goin through it, or you’ve been through it…you can hopefully make use of this advice as i have….!

The first bit of advice came from a good friend of mine. He is happily married and has a beautiful family. In a message he wrote:

im sorry those dreams/feelings continue to occur. i always tell people that the best way to get over somebody is to find somebody else you really like. i know its a little easier for guys, because we can detach easier, but if you can find that guy (maybe you’ve found him) that can help distract you, you ‘ll be on your way. dont be afraid to do that. ?other than that, its tough. love is something you cant put a cast or band aid over. only time can heal. ?have you spoke to him or thought about calling him up? that may help to know that maybe you guys can be friends. maybe knowing that you can hear his voice, or get some good advice, or at least say hello to him when you see him out, will help. is that possible?
hope you feel better ?i’ve been there

The next bit of advice came from my very own Abuelita….all the way in Cuba…She went through much heartbreak in her life….but she is happily re-married to her soul mate….I had written her an email telling her how i was feeling and this is what she said:

Mi Nina:
lo mas importante que te quiero decir es que porfa, levanta el animo, recuerda que no hay hombre que valga la pena que estemos triztes, yo se que es imposible mandar en el corazon y en los sentimientos, por eso tenemos que luchar ferreamente para llevarlos al olvido, recuerda que tu y solo tu vales mil veces mas, asi que levanta tu ego y adelante, te dije una vez que eso crea heridas pero como todas, se cierran y solo nos queda un leve recuerdo que en ocasiones hasta no sabemos exactamente donde se encuentran, pero todo depende del tiempo y de la fuerza de voluntad.
Bueno mi niña, no te doy mas muela sobre esto pues se que saldras adelante aunque todavia te quedaran dias como este en que te sientas mal pero de seguro pasara, te quiere un monton, besote,

Abuela

Opposites.

Filed under: Poetry — Tags: , , , , — gabriela @ 6:01 pm

Opposites

I read my horoscope every Thursday to get insight on my week
You laugh at my superstitions and accept me as “unique”
You wake up at six in the morning to get more time out of your week
But I see it as too much effort and I laugh at your teqnique.

I believe nothing’s impossible
And all can be attained with creativity
You believe in Reason
And look at life with objectivity

I’m outspoken and extroverted, overly emotional and highly political
You are quiet and introverted, perceptive and analytical
I believe in chance, you in probability
And while you see strength in consistency
I see strength in vulnerability

You live in a world of numbers and accurate solutions
I live in a world of magic and Illusion
Your mind tries to rationalize confusion
While my heart blindly trusts the spirits that guide its path
I read books on self-love, feminism and Revolution
And you read about Science, Computers and Math

To you, the world is logic
To me, it looks abstract
I search for truth in Intuition
And you search for truth in Fact
But one thing we both agree on,
Is that opposites attract;
Whether it’s random, or sequential
Metaphysical or Existential
The world is full of infinite potential
When our spirits interact.

Her Remains (November 2nd, 2007)

Filed under: Journal — Tags: , , , , , — gabriela @ 5:59 pm

Her Remains.

My mouth feels violated every time we kiss
For it can taste the reminisce of the woman you still miss
And when you hold me in your arms
Her ghost lingers in your charms
And when you lick me soft beneath my ear
Her name echoes an alarm
And even though she’s nowhere near
I can feel her presence here between us.

I see her reflection when you look into my eyes
And feel her scent when you reach between my thighs
Your heart still wants what your mind denies
And as we’re getting undressed
And your hand is pressed
Passionately against my breasts
I’m overcome with unrest at the thought of her
Ever so present is your past
And my feelings are overcast
With disappointment
For wanting you

For wanting something i cannot have
Yet I accept the broken half you offer me
Because I’m stubborn
And my heart (like yours), wants what my mind denies
And this ghost from your past I have come to despise
If it’s already dead why does it feel so alive
And I realize
That the only way for ghosts to die
Is for them to be forgotten
And only you can close that door
It is your love for yourself that can win that war
So until then
I must conform to being your friend
And nothing more.

The Gift.

Filed under: Poetry — Tags: , , , , , , , , — gabriela @ 5:53 pm

The Gift.

Life is a timba song
And it’s heart is the clave.
Clap – Clap- Clap - ClapClap
The clave;
It beats strong
And it beats steady throughout the song
Steady and conscious of itself
For it is the foundation
It is essential to the music
The root that holds everything together
Without it, nothing else makes sense
We are the claves
Clap-Clap-Clap- ClapClap
Our mothers are the claves
Clap-Clap-Clap- ClapClap
Our fathers are the claves
Clap – Clap – Clap – ClapClap
This beat is the gift of our ancestors
It is our birthmark
Branded onto our hips like tattoos
We carry the clave in our bones
And speak, like we move, in rhythm
Everywhere there is breath, there is salsa
You can find our music
Behind barrio alleys
On Hialeah street corners
In Brooklyn basements
Zabumba on Sundays
Santeria celebrations
Little cousin’s quinceaneras
And family reunions
Yes our music is everywhere we are.
There are Rueda classes in Chicago,
Cuban Festivals in Montana,
And of course there is always a reason to party in Little Havana
We have left our legacy in Alaska, Mexico, Canada, Beijing, Peru
And I bet even the esquimos in Antarctica know how to shake it inside their igloos
Our music has come full circle in Africa,
where it pays homage to its origins and rejoices its evolution
You can also find it at any Arcade in the form of Dance Revolution
It is shared in Indian Reservations, and in Tokyo night clubs,
There are even residues of our flavor in Germany, Britain, France and Spain
Through the sounds of maracas; yes, they too share a part of us, (Well, at least they try!)
Because Cubans, like our music, have touched every corner of the world
We are ambassadors of the drum and representatives of peace
Wherever the clave is, there is a celebration
So tell the UN that all they need to do to bring world peace is cancel the Geneva Convention and hold a Timba Pary instead
Teach Afghanis and Pakistanis to dance a Rueda
Make Israelis and Palestinians have to dance together
North Korea and South Korea will tap their feet
To the same salsa beat
And realize how similar they really are
And when the congas play to the trumpet sound
Walls will come down and bright colored streamers will fly high in the sky
Children from warring countries will look into each other’s eyes
And dance to the Clap-Clap-Clap- ClapClap
We will all dance our wars away
Russia and Georgia will share an enchufle
China will give Tibet a sombrero
And US Troops will do an Adios with Iraq
Because when two strangers are engaged in this musical exchange
They are connected, feet moving together
Hands touching, bodies flowing, souls glowing,
And hearts overcome with compassion
And how can there be wars when there is compassion?
How can we look into each others eyes and not find love?
So let our music be our contribution
Let this Clap-Clap-Clap- ClapClap be our gift
Wherever the congas beat there is my culture sharing itself with the world
Bringing love straight to your doorstep,
Instead of guns, drums shake the earth beneath your feet like an electric beam of light sending little shocks of joy through your blood stream.
Instead of bombs, we drop beats that make even the stiffest of hips move to the groove of the base, creating one people, one love, one race
Our music is everything
It is not a reminder of home, because music is our home
Clap- clap- clap- clapclap
Clapping its way into our yesterdays
And influencing the sounds of tomorrows
As Celia reminds us “Que la vida es un Carnaval”
And this becomes our philosophy
We learn to live like we dance, smiling at the joy that is life
Timba, salsa, son
tropetas, congas y cajon
Yes!
She, too, is a gift to me,
Her spirit resonates in all my poetry
And her rhythm resides within me
Flowing skirt
And dancing shoes
Toes vibrating inside stilettos
Mouth singing
Arms swinging
Fluterring like tropical butterflies
Sweat drips on shaking hips
And lips smile uncontrollably
Cause when I am dancing I am Queen
No scratch that, I am Goddess
No scratch that, I am Queen Goddess!
Exuding sexuality with every contraction
With every release
I release sensuality
Like I was drenched in honey
And men, like bees stick to my sweaty sweetness till their legs fall off
Cause when I am dancing
I forget my insecurities, my fears
I forget that I haven’t set foot on Cuban soil in years
I forget that there’s bills waiting for me at home
That my mother was angry when we last spoke on the phone
I forget that I have an overdue parking ticket,
That there is work on Monday morning
There’s always traffic on the 110
And that gas is $3.99 a gallon
When I am dancing
I am living for the moment
For this music
The next step
The next turn
Who knows how the song will end?
All I know is that my smile is so bright in this moment it could light up a city
After each and every song, my body is ready to collapse in exstasy, like that feeling of release you get right after the best orgasm of your life.
I wanna kiss my sweaty stranger of a partner and say Thank you Thank You Thank you!
Yo don’t know how much this meant to me!
And my breath is so sweet it smells like evaporated sugar canes
My cheeks are so red they burn with love
My eyes so big they are filled with compassion
And my life has meaning
Because as long as I have this gift,
this music,
I will always know who I am
And the world will be my dancefloor.
Clap-Clap-Clap- ClapClap

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